20090529

I participate in the singing contest this Thursday. My voice is really bad, so is my singing. What's worse, I have serious stage fright. When I was on the stage, the light from the sound effect room in the back of the conference room was so strong that I felt like partially blind when i was singing. But somehow from the audience's screaming and shouting i know my performance was a success. I guess the judges probably gave me a zero for my singing and 100 for my dancing. (but the weird thing is, my dancing is always really bad, too)

I know my performance and ideas could be copied and stolen because I heard that some classmates going to KTV that night sang MY SONG. So I'm determined to come up with more signature songs, maybe one day I can perform my signature songs in the year-end dinner party if i'm working in a international company like Honhai, and then maybe get some scouts' attention or attract some successful entrepreneurs like the way 曾馨瑩 attracts 郭台銘.

20090522

Last weekend I went to the young designer's exhibition in Taipei world trade center. Many graduates this year of industrial design came up with bicycles or bicycle accessories because cycling is hot. I've never had a really great experience of watching the yearly YDE, so i'm here to write down some do's and don'ts for a better experience next time:

Arrive early so I can take my time watching the show.
Bring food and water with me so I can stay hours in the center.
Watch the show on weekdays.
Visit stands of the art schools in which I'm interested first, and roam around the rest.
Go with friends/families but watch the show on my own, i don't like listening to others' opnions when i'm still trying to grasp designers' ideas.
Collect cool designers' business cards.
.
.
.

20090515

I have bought more than 7 books online this semester but I haven't finish reading any one of them. Our teacher Ms. Chu also gave everyone of us a book (translation : Yesterday's Laborer, Today's Google Manager) in compensation for the meal she's not going to buy us (everybody complains), so I have a lot of books going on right now.

I buy books in which I believe I can find wisdoms or answers to my life or simply out of curiosity. I'm not a fast reader. When I find a sentence that means a lot to me, I stop and keep thinking about it. It's really a great transfornation that I start collecting books because all my life before I bought magazines or beauty books only(no wonder i'm this shallow today) For the first time in my life I realize I can be attracted to the power of words(not Word Power, i hate it), and i feel good about it.

Speaking of books, last weekend I bought my mom a cook book with pictures all looking tasty and healthy to me. I bought the book in name of mother's day celebration, but in fact I expect my mom to try the recipes so I can eat those, for I know nothing about cooking. Will my mom cook as delicious as those pictures seem to me? Fingers crossed.

20090508

Back to reality, the idea of quitting school pops out in my head from time to time, at different stages of my school life. Actually this idea comes back to my mind again, in this time of recession, everyone is afraid of losing jobs and some students are leaving school because of their unemployed parents!

Well, I'm just saying. I cherish the fact that I'm still studying at school and thankfully I still have two years left before graduation. I know I have the right attitude, but i need to get rid of some bad habits(being late is one of them, but it takes time to improve, i can't promise being on time for this composition class from now on....), work on something I don't have, try something i never did before(what are they? shhh......i won't reveal). In fact, professional area is my last concern now, and I'm confident I'll never be eliminated however bad the economy is.

20090501

I always say that I have to find a breadwinner to support me and my brother is my first choice, yet recently i have a feeling that I got more potential to be successful than he does. I'm not as good as he is in getting good grades but I'm much more talented, motivated and I know I'm good at discoverying problems and take actions to solve them. Since my brother is now officially the student of department of accounting in ntu, I think I can take advantage of that and cooperate with him. Maybe I can hire him as my personal assisstant/accountant if I'm a super career woman at job.

But what if I'm laid off no matter how hard I work? well then, I still have a highly educated brother, a sister who is a civil servant and a responsible brother-in-law to depend upon. What if my family are seperated by some irresistible force? Then I'll find a friend to live together and cooperate.

My bottom line is I can give up the mundanity and be a bald headed nun sweeping the floor, helping and lecturing people in a buddhist temple , if I'm all alone, unemployed, bankrupt in this world. Honestly, I'm not afraid of letting go everything.
(未完)